Today was my first day back. And since I don't talk about work on here, I'll spare all the details of what my world is focused on right now. But I will go into a few things.
1. I cannot figure out where to pump. Talked to the building manager about finding an empty room, but there's so much construction she's concerned about toxic dust and what not. Probably a legitimate concern. I already find how much I hate pumping. I already knew that, but it's more profound now. It really takes a chunk out of my day. And since my supply has already been going down, that means I take a chunk out of my day to pump, but only manage to supply with her about half of what she's taking in (and that might be overly optimistic). So the question is, is it worth it? I could theoretically leave work a little earlier if I didn't take time off to pump. What's more important, the little bit of time she would get with me, or the little bit of breast milk? I hate having to make decisions like this.
2. The hard part about leaving her at daycare is seeing how small she is. That's the part that's striking. You see her sitting there, as you're leaving, and all you can think is how small she is. Much too small to be leaving. Much to tiny to be handing over to someone else. If I had a large child would I still feel this way? Probably.
3. She had her 4 month checkup last Thursday. She's a tiny bit on the small side, but doing great all in all. However, she's 30th percentile for height and weight, and 75th percentile for head circumference. Mah baybee's a bobblehead!
4. She rolled over yesterday! She had rolled over a couple times before, but it was always an accident and she couldn't repeat it. Or she was on a slope (or I happened to help her.) So the ped recommended to up her tummy time. 7 or 8 times a day. And after only a couple days, she did it! I was putting some things away while she played on the floor when I heard a "thump". It's a lucky thing they have hard heads, even with padding our hardwood floors aren't soft.