I should start this post by saying that I won't be offended if you want to step away from my blog for the next few weeks. I know I'm being whiny. I know deep down that I'm lucky and my discomforts are minor and temporary. But this is my blog, and therefore this is where I whine.
Today's appointment was an odd one, mostly because it was the first one I've taken MJ to. And because I had an internal exam that I forgot about. I always try to shower for those. Oops.
The appointment started with me peeing in a cup. I find it odd that my midwife practice makes me do this at every appointment. Is this normal for other folks? During MJ's pregnancy (in a completely different office) I remember maybe once or twice being checked for protein. I can't help but think this is just a ratcheting up of health care costs with unnecessary tests.
MJ was pretty fascinated by the concept of peeing in a cup. She was only willing to go potty afterwards if I promised her that she did not have to pee in a cup.
The exam was fine, and thankfully MJ listened and sat in the chair (next to my head) for the actual exam. I'm not too worried about traumatizing her, but I'm certain she would share whatever she learned with anyone who will listen at the 4th of July party, thus traumatizing me. Mostly she just liked that it was an actual doctor's office, with an examining table, stethoscope, etc., just like in her books.
I'm up 41.5 pounds, which is half a pound in the last two weeks. A much more respectable weight gain than the rest of my pregnancy, thankfully. Furthermore, I'm 75% effaced and "baby is really low". The midwife didn't use any words like engaged, etc., but kept reiterating that she was really low, asking if I felt like she was low. I have been wondering this, given the random (and crippling) shooting pains in my pelvis. It doesn't really feel like she dropped, because my belly seems to be in the same place. But hearing this makes me at least feel like I'm not crazy for feeling like I'm so close. I realize that these numbers don't really mean anything, I could still deliver at 42 weeks, but that's progress I don't have to worry about making later.
I am entering the bitching stage of pregnancy (I may have been in it for a while). I am not a glowing pregnant lady. Until recently I've at least been a happy pregnant lady, but I'm past that, too. I've been whining a lot. And grumbling a lot. About the heat. About pelvic pain. About peeing ALLTHETIME. About round ligament pain, which is much worse than last time around. Probably because I had so much back and hip pain I was largely immobile (in that I simply didn't move) and didn't have the opportunity for the weight of my belly to be a problem.
I know this is nature's way of making us glad for the approaching discomfort that is labor and having a newborn. When labor was done last time, I recall thinking how much better that was than pregnancy. Having a newborn seemed so much more pleasant than being pregnant. But labor and newbornhood is tough, so late pregnancy HAS to suck this much or we wouldn't feel this way.
I've discussed this theory of mine with other women. I don't think most of them agree.
In other news, our mice are back. Aren't they supposed to be living outside in the Minnesota summer while they can? Also, our dining room lights no longer work and our third floor shower leaks into my daughter's bedroom. I love having a 109 year old house.